that’s all kinda
every deamn night
hi y’all it’s been a while (again, over and over again with this kid ugh go away already) I’m very over caffeinated and very over worked but i did a ritual last night and it worked and i know it worked because i can feel inside me and i feel very very good and this is not just the caffeine talking and i’m super excited to be alive. also i’m not on drugs. well i guess that’s a lie. caffeine’s a drug. but i’m at work doing the naughty thing where i go into incognito mode on my computer (which is funny because this little guy pops up saying that incognito doesn’t prevent your employers from seeing what you’re doing but you know what no one’s even looking so joy to the devil and all that jazz) and surf the web and i was like hey you know what i haven’t blogged in a while imma do that and then here i am.
nothing has really changed i guess.
i’ve been watching a lot of x-files.
i gave myself a upper percentile B- for last week (we’re talking like 84% here) idk if i’m doing much better this week tbh
i started writing again (even joined a writing club in town ooh-la-la)
i’m still kicking ass at my job which is surprising given how crazy things have been/are/will be
all my friends and i are getting along for the most part.
yeah. life’s pretty great.
you know those days when you’re on top of the world because you’re just killin it at everything you do.
yeaaaaah it’s been of those days
it’s that time of the year again
the air is getting colder
the leaves dryer
i can feel boredom seeping from
the back of my brain to the tips
of my eyes. a blanket of nostalgic
afterthought throws itself around me.
i start looking without knowing i am.
i’m going to get myself in trouble with myself.
now is not the time.
my best friend hexxxes is so friggin cool last night we sat in their bed till 3 in the morning just drinking wine and catching up and discussed how fun being an adult can be (let’s not get too carried away y’all we’re still party animals as we had to make it very clear to the housemates’ compadre that he could not drink us under the table even in the wildest of dreams).
I’m so proud of myself for keeping company with someone who pushes me to pursue my interests, who challenges me to think, who will love me despite my abstract and scattered brain tendencies, who will pick me up when I’m down, who will be loyal, honest, and communicate, and someone who is a role model at every stage of life we’ve shared together. Seriously the luckiest neutrino in the world 💖
"i am a drug" - lm
tonight i spent a most productive and wonderful night with one of my closest friends after a long and extremely stressful day both between classes and work. it was one of those nights that not only secured my new found direction and joy in my pursuit of interests both academic and social, but also proved to me that i can follow my dreams at the expense of not spending so much time with the people who i deem important to my life and my growth, and still have them support and love me. there’s nothing quite like sharing a entire large pizza with someone and downing a beer or two and getting straight into a four hour study/homework session with someone you truly care about.
all i can really put into words from the whole experience is that i’m truly grateful and happy. i haven’t felt this honest to earth, non-manic induced, forward moving, confident and loyal to myself in a long, long time.
The art of Zhuang Yating
7 chakras would be such a dope tattoo
pt2. these are my confessions:
I wonder which hell this will bring
still in a financial hole
mom’s gonna flip
I have impeccable timing
this is now a traci lords appreciation blog
when I wake up in the morning I be like
also I woke up real late today slacking on healthy status #
Black Canary by Alex Toth
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